My Current State of Blogging

I couldn’t think of an appropriate title for this blog post because at first I thought I was having a midlife crisis and contemplating going to therapy. Then I decided I was burnt out. So whatever you want to call it… I’ve been going through something the past few weeks and I finally feel like I’m am seeing the light at the end of tunnel…but I’m not there just yet.

So, yeah I’m not sure what to call this exactly and my feelings have been a little bit of everywhere. The last few weeks I’ve been cranky, miserable, feeling down, tired, many feelings. I even woke up on a Monday and called my husband crying. What was I crying about? I was just frustrated for no particular reason. I guess life has been getting to me. Between work and all the pressures I put on myself. I just felt burned out. I am always trying to accompolish as much as I can in a day. I am one of those people who have to stay busy to feel like I am being productive. I have a hard time doing nothing.

So when I felt like this what did I do? I did the worst possible thing…I watched YouTube videos. Which got me into trouble in the first place. Watching videos then getting frustrated. Am I doing enough? Am I enough? Am I productive enough? Do I have enough money for retirement? Am I on the right track with life? Am I on the right track with my career? Yes these are real thoughts for me and I do down this spiral of binge watching videos and I overload myself. That on top of already being stressed out is a recipe for disaster.

So I just stopped and allowed myself to feel all my feelings. No more YouTube videos, no more pressure to blog and accept sometimes just being and doing nothing. No more pressure to read 3 books a month or do anything because I feel like I need to do these things. So instead I’ve just been living. I haven’t felt like blogging so I stopped.

Earlier in the month I took a break and talked about it. So clearly, there is something going on over here and I’m still trying to work on it the best I can. Which means self care, deep breaths, talking and putting myself first. So I might start blogging again but I’m doing this at my own pace and how it feels right to me. No more pressure.

6 thoughts on “My Current State of Blogging

  1. mandioutsidethebox March 30, 2022 / 9:14 am

    Hello! Thank you for being so opened and honest! I am a new blogger and already feeling overwhelmed! haha! Just know that you are not alone! Take the time you need and look after YOU!

    I look forward to catching up on your blog! (just started reading!)

    Thanks again and best of luck!

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    • Rebekah Taylor March 30, 2022 / 9:20 am

      Thank you so much for your kind words. Life and blogging can get overwhelming. I am still working on balance. I’ll get there one day haha 😄 YAY for you for taking the leap and starting a blog! Can’t wait to see your posts!

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      • mandioutsidethebox April 3, 2022 / 8:05 am

        I was so scared to get started then realized, it’s a hobby. It doesn’t have to be perfect. I am just taking it one day at a time and learning as I go! Looking forward to reading more of your posts as well! Keep it up!

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  2. beinglefenyo April 7, 2022 / 1:27 am

    Aah Sis, I come back to the space only to find that you’ve had a tough few weeks. I’m sorry about that though, thank you for being vulnerable with us your readers. I’m glad you’re doing everything at your own pace, and remember to be gentle with yourself and speak kindly to yourself. You are enough and you do matter.

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    • Rebekah Taylor April 7, 2022 / 6:45 am

      Thank you for the kind words. They mean a lot to me. Its amazing in this time what I am learning about myself. How I deal with stress. What works and doesn’t work. It’s only making me stronger 💪slow and steady. Much love 💖

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