The Year of Challenge and Change

I want to write this post so that I can take some time to reflect on the bad and the good that happened in my life this past year. I hope this will inspire you to do the same. This has been a rough year for everyone. Many people have struggled in their personal lives and financially as well. A lot of bad has happened but I hope this will inspire you to not only look at the bad but also the good. Reflect on how far you have come and what you have learned.

January started like every year previous. Those New Years Resolutions. I made a whole post and wrote down all my goals. Did I stick to any of them? Of course not. I think the only thing I am doing religiously is flossing twice daily and that started a few months ago. Either way, I was enthusiastic about a new fresh start. Also, in January my husband I have started to venture into tasting new wines. So much so that this December we purchased a wine refrigerator for ourselves for Christmas.

If you follow me on Instagram you will know that I am a ADN prepared nurse and was pursing my BSN. I was taking classes this past Spring but then decided to put that on hold. I am unsure at this point if I will further my education but at this point I am happy with my career and do not see the benefit in this. So that happened at well this year.

Then March hit and it hit hard. Covid started occurring in my state and mask wearing became required. The pandemic was about to hit full swing. My anxiety was through the roof when my state went into lockdown. This was the first time this has ever happened and we did not know what to expect. In the mist of all this my dog Mitch lost his battle to cancer. I still miss him but am glad for the time we had. He had so much meaning to me. He was the first dog my husband and I had as a family. When he passed it felt like a family member was missing. I could not believe how lonely I felt with him gone.

The month of May we were still in full swing with the Pandemic. During this time my mother sold her home. My childhood home was gone. My sister, mom and nephews all moved eight hours away. I knew this was coming but deep down I hoped it would not so I kept pushing off the feelings. But the day came and it felt unreal. We are now in December and I have yet to able to visit due to COVID. It has felt like a lifetime and I miss them so much. Also, during the month of May we had to cancel our vacation to Aruba. That was a disappoint but not a big deal. I still took the time off of work and I guess that was good timing because I ended up sick with COVID during this time. Unfortunately, I contracted it from a coworker. I became sick with what I thought was allergies but then developed bad body aches. When I found out my coworker tested positive I went and got tested. The results were positive and my poor husband also contracted it from me. So there we were quarantined inside the house for 2 weeks. My lovely mother-in-law was sweet enough to drop us off groceries and anything else we needed during this time. During this time we both had birthdays and she even dropped off a small cheesecake so we could celebrate. God has blessed me with a loving caring family.

By June we were both recovered. We even got a new addition to the family. A boston terrier puppy who we named Millie. I fell in love with her instantly. She keeps us busy and is a ball of energy. If you follow me on social media you see her often. She even has a few blog posts dedicated to her.

The next few months rolled by and were pretty uneventful. The pandemic continued and my anxiety improved. Life with masks and social distancing has become the new normal. My husband and I celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary. I even started to get back into blogging in August. Then September did not go as planned because I quit my job! Crazy right!? In the middle of a pandemic my butt quits. Honestly, it was coming and I just needed the one thing to set me over the edge. Well it happened that month. So there I was unemployed and living on the edge. Not really on the edge. I would not have quit if it would hurt me financially. The great thing about being a registered nurse is that I can always find a job and will always be needed in some aspect of care. During this time I reflected about what I want out of my career and what I want for my future. I went on a few interviews and found a job I was interested in. I prayed about it and thankfully I was offered the position. Of course I accepted and I am still very happy with that decision.

I do not talk much about politics or what is occurring in the news because I usually do not feel like I am educated enough on the topics. So I will speak briefly about these. This past November brought me a lot of stress around the Presidential elections. I will not go into who I voted for and why but I felt a lot of anger and stress. I have never felt such division and hate as I did during this time. I have never felt such anxiety about what the outcome would be. I was confused on how people could stand by and allow hate to win.

So here we are its the end of December. On Christmas eve we had bad rain and winds and we lost power to our home on Christmas morning at 2 am. Thank goodness my husband purchased a generator and we were able to get up and running. We are still in the middle of a pandemic…. but there is now a vaccine and people will continue to fight. I still have not seen my mother, sister or nephews….but they are healthy and happy and I talk to them often and skype. I lost my dog to cancer….but he is no longer suffering and we now have a new addition to the family. He will never be replaced but he will be remembered. My husband and I had COVID….but we are both healthy and thriving. We both still have jobs and have not been impacted financially by this pandemic. While there has been so much pain and suffering this year. I have been blessed that I have not lost anyone to COVID and we are all doing well. There are many people today with no jobs, fighting for their health and lives. So I hope you will take the time to reflect on your 2020 and see the positive in each situation. Now, time to move forward and welcome 2021!

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